After unloading a huge weight off my shoulder, i thought i would be relieved, however i experienced mixed emotions, confusion, panic a contrast to the feeling of freedom i expected.but i also realized that come thick or thin i an not alone.
So if you are out there, and going through tough times there is always light at the end of the tunnel and as the African adage goes ;" A problem shared is a problem half solved."
i write this piece for you:
Heavens
draw nearer and neared to my head, my light diminishes to a crescent on
the margins of a world that is slowly caving in; a lump threatens to
clog my throat, as I recount my selfishness.
I have never known such pain, that is intangible slicing without a trace, and I swear I could feel my heart bleeding, I absently touch my chest expecting to be met with its sticky coldness,,, and sigh …nothing!.
I grasp in the darkness of my soul, searching for what I know defines me, i cling to strength and like water its escapes my grasp, I fumble for reason, and logic seems illusive.
I did not even realize that I was losing my way in my quest for an answer and social approval, pride that comes before a fall, arrogance or mere ignorance; I singly tried to grapple with my truth.
I am not invincible, I am human, I cannot please everybody, I make mistakes and most certainly learn from my mistakes.
When time comes, the past will bury its dead, but until then I soldier on, this time I am not alone, this time i have my own little world cheering me on, this time there is no hesitation.
to be continued......
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